Seed Phrase

Hey, hey, hey, hey, all you yuppers, so good to be back. Oh yeah, boom, ba-boom, ba-boom, ba-boom. Hey, I've got to tell you, when I went to bed last night, I was just like, I had, and I've had probably for, oh, probably the last week or so, because I'm a week behind on the podcast. And so last night especially, but it's been on my mind, I've just been, I've got to do a podcast and not like that, uh, that legalistic, I've got to do it because I put one out every week and I, and I know you guys enjoy having it on a consistent basis and I do apologize. But what I'm wanting to express now is my desire wasn't that I had to, it's that I have something inside that had to come out. But then I asked myself, what are you going to podcast about? And I have a list, about five podcasts that are pretty important that, uh, that are on my list to do. And none of them were giving me that, that feeling of, of, so as I was going to bed as I often do and as all of us are doing, we are seeking a life of meaning and purpose. And so we're getting to a place of peace. We're quieting those negative thoughts. We're focusing on the thoughts and the future that we're going to live now, that best reality now. And that is a practice that is something that does take a fair bit of resources. Those of you that are doing it know that is a challenge, but it is worth it. And so as I was going to bed, I was really focusing my mind that way. And I don't know why this last week has in particularly been really challenging to me. And I think, and when we were in Mexico and it was awesome and life is awesome wherever I'm at. And I'm just, I'm not just saying that it is true. I have a great life and it's getting better all the time. But I think the stark reality of the challenge of, of this last week was coming back and we had been gone for two months. So coming back was fairly new, but it was interesting how quickly it became very familiar again and falling back into, I'm going to use some wording that came out of last podcast, scripted practices. Like this is what I do. I come back, I go to work and my son and I, who I, he had been working on a project while I was in Mexico and we're finished up. We have a hard deadline. So I'm up in the morning getting materials, going to work and working hard and then coming home and coming home and having utilized my body to the full. Cause I have this awesome body and it serves me so well. I'm 58 years old, still work hard and expend the energy, but in different verbiage, someone may say they're tired, but I use my body to the full resources. Words absolutely matter. Something we're going to hit again and again, words matter. So work on your phrasing, your phrasing absolutely matters. But part of that is getting back into that routine. The challenge for me is when Adrian and I were in Mexico and we worked hard down there, we worked on projects, we helped with ministry, but usually in the midst of that, we had time to have these deeper conversations. And I think that's what I'm really lacking. I got back into it. I'm gone all day. The job that I'm working at happens to be about 40 minutes away. So it's, you know, hour and a half fish there and back closer to two hours, depending on the traffic and the weather has been iffy. So the traffic has been slower. Thank God people are driving slower. Thank you Yeshua Hamashiach for your mercies in that area, quantum field, whatever you want to call it, but missing out on those conversations and then debrief. And so it's quickly getting into a routine. And so my mind, and this is the challenge, this is not falling into scripted patterns because there's scripts out there that we listen to in music. We watch on TV, entertainment, news, scripts that people give us, but there are also scripts that we write ourselves and scripts can be the wordage, the verbiage, how you talk to yourself, but it's also how you live your life. And so I went from a life in Mexico that was very prioritized around serving and mission. And when we work up here in Montana, we serve and we really serve our clients well, but we are working for profit and we are working for hard deadlines. And so when I came back and this is a challenge, I'm not, it's not impossible. It's just a challenge and it's a place of growth for me. But I fell back into this very scripted, get up, go to work, make sure you get all the things, get the things done, come home, have dinner. And then Adrian and I have been, there's a couple of shows that we watch. And I told Adrian the other night, one of the shows is Good Doctor. And if you haven't watched it, it's an interesting show. I'm not going to necessarily recommend it, but they're telling us a script, a story. They're telling a vision, they're creating imagery and programming in your mind, I know, and I'm willingly watching it. But I had said to Adrian, I said, I'm really able to separate out all the programming that's in it, enjoy the entertainment. Well, when I went to bed last night, I realized as I was thinking about the show and the programming and in this show, what I realized part of the programming, because I was very entertained, entertained, intrigued, engaged, maybe engaged is a better word, because I've never been around somebody that's autistic. And so I didn't really understand it. And so looking at this doctor that is autistic on the spectrum, but also has savant syndrome, which is a form of brilliance, incredibly smart. I didn't realize the underlying programming that was getting into me. And I'll tell you what it was for me. And I think the programming can be a little different for everybody, because I think these programs are multi targeted, kind of like a broad spectrum pesticide. They're designed to kill that thing in you that manifests the best reality, causes you to seek meaning and purpose and not only seek it, but enjoy it, live in it, bathe in it, and really soak it up. And for me, what hit is everybody that comes in there has cancer or has some rare disease. And since all this is all this on the show, as I'm watching it, and sometimes in the evening, multiple episodes, I am being programmed with cancer, rare disease, rare, weird things that happen. And I'm thinking about these and I'm like, hmm, best reality now, what are you feeding it? You're feeding it crap. So I'm probably going to need to talk to Adrian. I haven't talked to her yet because I've been processing this and she's out having fun managing our grandson while our daughter-in-law is doing some clothes shopping for our grandson and probably for herself and her husband, which is my son. So we'll have to talk about that. But I think that is part of my struggle. And so I've fallen into the script and I'm getting kind of this negative programming. So all this really cool reality that has been unfolding in my life has, in a sense, and I'm not going to curse myself because it's starting back up again, but came to a halt because I've introduced some negative programming, some negative scripting into my life. And I knew this, but like you, I fall into the habit because I'm utilizing my body and my resources to the maximum at the end of the night. I want to be told a vision. I want to be detained by being entertained instead of moving my thoughts ahead. And I'm thinking a solution is as I'm thinking out loud, you guys, it's funny because I haven't even gotten to the point of this podcast, but the point is powerful, but I don't think it's going to take that long. But I think this is an important conversation because in the reality, as we're moving to that best reality now, and we're living that best reality, we have challenges. And these are real challenges. These are challenges similar probably to what you're experiencing. And so having this conversation and talking about solutions. And so the other show that we were watching was mash. And I don't feel like I'm as influenced by that. I watched it as a kid. It's interesting watching as an adult. And there, there is some, as I say that as like, I'm, I'm, I'm going to pick apart my own show. Yeah. The, the irresponsibility and the promiscuity promiscuity in mash, as far as these guys being married, but having their, uh, wife over as they're fighting in this war and their surgeons. And so the nurses that they have there, you know, co-habitating with them as a wife and a wife at home introducing programming that for me really doesn't fit. So I don't even know that that's a good match. And I don't know that I can make an argument for it. So it looks like Tom is going to be doing something else. And the something else is really what I want to talk about is that in that evening time is to sit there and engage with my wife and have those conversations that we had in Mexico and maybe watch some things that we're interested in. I know that there are a number of apps and there are things that are focused on scripting that helps us move in that direction. There are ones that do it for you. There are ones that you can participate with. I'm actually going to try one this week, and I'm going to give you some feedback on that, but just my challenge. And I knew there was something in me that had to come out. And I think this is probably a good part of it because I wanted to get in here. And so there's part of me that's like, Tom, get in there. There's another part of me that is just like, don't go in there. And I'll tell you, one of the physical things that I'm dealing with when I was in Mexico, and you know, part of that best reality now and that when I lived in Mexico was the dental work I had done. And this week as in Mexico, you know, I had like some partial dentures made and some crowns, some teeth pulled, some teeth filled and, you know, and just amazing work. And so this week, as I kind of allowed different programming and vision casting and detainment of my thoughts by being entertained, I was detained. The crazy thing is, and this is why the best reality now is so important. All of a sudden, I've been pretty used to my dentures and I feel like I'm adapting well. Occasionally I'm a little lazy and my words don't get enunciated well and it sounds a little slurry. But the truth is I'm getting better. But this week, when I accepted, not even going to say accepted, looked for and brought into my life this different scripting, these partial dentures, I felt like they grew in size about four times. And all of a sudden, they're super bulky. I was getting to the point where I wasn't even noticing them. One of the tooth teeth that I had a pretty great filling in, the dentist was concerned that after, you know, she filled it, there may be some pain and that we may have to pull later. And so there's like a full week and a half after it was filled in Mexico. No pain the way home, no pain this week. When I introduced some different programming and the programming dictated some different behaviors, diet-wise, thought-wise, not being as connected as I should with my family and my wife. Guess what? That tooth started to hurt. So as I'm wanting to come into this podcast room, guess what? I have a toothache. And so I've been really working to get back on track to take that every thought captive, find gratitude, find peace using some of the hacks that I know. Like, remember when that tooth hurt? Remember when it was causing me problems? Remember when it was really sensitive? So using those and those are working and also using my brain and my logic looking for things because what I'm sure is happening that as this week I've been working really hard that and my partial dentures have grown in size. Really, they haven't. But in my mind, in my experience, they absolutely have. As I'm biting them, I'm playing with them, I'm grinding my teeth that, you know, the filling, a lot of that tooth wasn't there. And so the filling came back. And so the stress and not being in a place of peace, not being in that place of gratitude, you can be busy and still be in place of peace and gratitude. But I allowed some other scripting that came in, come in and tell me a different story and begin to wear down some of those great, like, best reality now habits that I have honed into place. I allowed them to be set aside a bit. And so grinding of the teeth and I can, I can remember, as I'm researching this, that I was, I was grinding, I was biting and I was pressing hard and the symptoms that I have are inflammation of that tooth. And so I'm also taking some things to help with that. And we'll see that. And these are great learning experiences. You know, a little tooth pain helps you appreciate the healthy mouth and that helps you get to a place of gratitude. Thinking about that way, instead of fixating on, oh my gosh, and I'm going to have to go to this and I'm going to have to do this and living in the contrast while working towards a solution, both in the mental realm, because reality is fluid, remember, so we're changing the reality, but living in the reality right now that there is some pain. And so I'm going to look and I'm going to do what I can for that pain. And there's, there's this weird duality as we're living in both those worlds without betraying our belief because the best reality now is there is no toothache or is it because we, we experienced some pain and then we realize what it's like not having pain. So to have the toothache for a while and then have it go away. Is that the best reality now? I will tell you right now that as I've been doing these things, it is true. The toothache has lessened in pain, like substantially, like 60%, if not even a little more. And I'm able to be in here podcasting and I'm not going to bite down and tell you how the pain is. Cause I'm not supposed to, if I've been inflamed there because I'm grinding my teeth and need to leave it alone so it can get back to a normal state. Anyway, all that to say it has been a challenge to get in here. And I just want to encourage you to keep that scripting clean and just let the negative scripting fall away. Just choose to take it out of your life that there's so much more in stake here that, that, that convenience to check out for a while. For me, it's just not worth it. I'm not sure what I'm going to do with a black box that casts a vision and spells over me, but I need, I need to find something to do with that. I need to, yeah, make it an asset and not a liability. But today's podcast is I want to talk to you about a seed phrase. And I was thinking about it and I was thinking about the little train that could, and the little train that could is a story that most of us heard in our childhood. And it's this little train has to go up this hill. And it's like, I think I can, I think I can, I think I can. And as it's maintaining them, the train is going up the hill, but things are getting harder. And the train's like, I don't think I can. I don't think I can. And we know the end of the story is that as the train focuses on what it can't do, it's not able to do that. But when it focuses on what it can do, what it thinks it can do, it's not sure. It's not sure that it can do it. And the train eventually does it as it is. And I love that because I think I can came to me last night as I was going to bed as a seed phrase. And at first I thought, well, that's kind of a waffle phrase, like a weasel phrase. You don't know you can. But as we're moving into this process of living that best reality now and realizing that reality is fluid and we've never done this before, some of us and most of us don't know because we've never done it. And we haven't been here. We don't know that we can. And there are people that have went before us. There are others, mystics, manifestors, call them what you will. And there's a number of them that are really credible. And some people that wouldn't even call it about manifesting. They just created their own lock and saw amazing results time and time again that just broke the probability. And like just broke it. There's no problem way that they could be that lucky, have that much fortune, have that much stuff that they spoke, come into their life. And they started, I would imagine the stories that I've heard, some of them, you know, started. Some of them had already been there and they were teaching from a place to be there. And they offered hacks, you know, to help your brain in that state of doubt, because I think I can have some doubt in it. But it also has this wonderful thing. And it is that thing which is like sunshine and water together, belief. And as we start that phrase, I think I can and maybe we're 20% sunshine and water and the seed is planted. And then we move a little farther and we're saying, I think I can. But really what we're saying is 30%. We've had a 10% increase. The belief is starting because as we're going, as we're moving up the hill and then it's like, I think I can. And then we're like, I'm doing it. It's 40, 50%. And then we go a little farther and it's getting tougher, but we're still going up and we're having to put a lot of effort in and there's a lot of strain. And we're like, I think I can, but it's getting really hard. But we're looking and we're still moving and we're doing it. So we're up to that 60, 70%. And then all of a sudden it gets really hard. And maybe the train and the little train, the boiler starting to reach critical temperatures and we're getting worried. And then we're like, I'm not sure I can. And it goes down maybe 5, 10%. We're at 60%. And the doubt comes in and the doubt can be like a plague and it can just kill and still our power. And that's why it is so, so important to be at these places of peace and gratitude at that place. You say, wow, I've come so far. Good job. Good job. You're talking to yourself. These are affirmations to yourself. You're like, nice job. You're, you're doing great. Yeah. You're up to seven. You dropped a low, but look, you're holding it. You're still doing a great job. And then yourself says, yeah, I did. I am. I think I can do this. You have to be your own advocate. And it's great when we have those people around us that can advocate for us when we get to a place where we hit 70% and then we dropped and we're starting to have doubts and they come alongside and they're like, look how far you've come. You're doing it. You can do it. But in absence of those, there's somebody that's always around because you exist in this universe, in this quantum film, this kingdom of heaven. And you know, that I believe personally, Yeshua Hamashiach that we're never alone. And so when I'm in this field, I'm in this field of infinite potential, infinite energy, and infinite power. And so in this field, I'm going to take and engage with those resources. And I'm going to encourage myself. I'm going to say, Tom, you're doing great. You can do this. It's actually what I did today to get into this podcast. I would say today, and I try to always be honest and authentic. Today's a low day. I woke up and I kind of wish that I hadn't, not died, but that I could have laid in bed and I kind of kind of mowed around and I could have just been poor me. And there's an excuse why I'm not going to get anything done today. Not that getting something done is always the goal, but there are things that I actually wanted to get done. And so today when I was upstairs, unlike Tom, there's something in you that needs to come out and you have what it takes. Doesn't matter that you have a toothache. Doesn't matter that you're feeling a little low. Doesn't matter. One of the things I've had to do is forgive myself for watching those scripts and even telling Adrian at the time I believed it, but it ended up being a lie that they weren't affecting me and forgive myself. It's like, Tom, I forgive you. I love you. We are not used to talking to ourselves that way. But when we get the seed phrase, which is an amazing, amazing starting place, I think I can. We get that. And if you're blessed with a community and you built a community and there is transparency there and they know what you're going through and they know where you're going after and they can encourage you, that's awesome. But you're always there. Why would you not encourage yourself? You should love yourself. Why wouldn't you? It's a good question. And if you don't, ask that question and trust the first thing that pops into your head. And then I would encourage you, Yeshua HaMashiach, also known as Jesus, but his real name is Yeshua HaMashiach. And when we talk about the kingdom of heaven and the quantum field, he is a very physical, tangible part of that where we can talk to and where we can interact with and answer those questions and get that unconditional love that we need. He says, I love you. I believe in you. So if the God of the universe, the infinite power, the source of everything, loves you, who are you to disagree? Really? You know more than him? Source of everything? And you're going to say, you don't understand. I can't forgive myself. Really? I forgave you. I love you. I believe you can do it. So we take that seed phrase and we utilize these amazing divine tools that we have of forgiveness, love for ourselves, interacting with a divine personal God on a personal and intimate level. And we transform the I think I can to I know I can. And as I know I can, I enter that life of meaning and purpose and those things I know I can manifest those things. I know I like the phrasing. I can live in the best reality now. And when the hard things come, the contrast that really helps me savor the beautiful, I know that I can understand that. I know that it's not going to the I know I can and turn it into I can't. I won't. I don't believe anymore. The risk, and it is a risk as we go to this place of living the best reality now, is that doubt comes in and it takes us back to that place that we've been most of our lives. Because that place where we've lived most of our lives is very comfortable. It's very familiar. And this week, that was one of the things that I felt is that, oh, this is familiar. This is predictable. And my brain can be a little lazy and my subconscious can really check out and let something else tell it a vision. But my body and my brain and my consciousness and my subconscious crave meaning and purpose and it's the most important thing to us. We want to live a life of meaning and purpose. We want to live in the best reality now. We are living in the best reality now. So I know I can. I know I am. I know I am living in the best reality now. And I take the struggles and the hardships and I leverage everything for good. I'm grateful for the challenges. I'm grateful for the learning. I'm even grateful for the pain to live in this best reality now. So friends, I'm going to wrap it up for now. I can't decide. I'm in the podcast studio here in my closet looking at all the beautiful clothes of mine and my lovely wife's and it's kind of a cold day. Sun's out but it's cold and I was working in our RV that we brought back from Mexico and it got a little beat up on the way home but fixing it up. What I can't decide right now is whether I'm going to take a warm shower or if I'm going to go back to that camper. But either way, I so appreciate you and have an amazing week because I got you. I do. I got you. Oh yeah, I got you.